favorite scene per episode: season four
1.09 - forest of the dead
you know I felt sad the very first time i watched this even though we had never seen her before. We had nothing to put really any of it in context, yet I thought of Rose and Donna and Sarah Jane and any of the companions and the adventures they have and how they all see him as THEIR DOCTOR. the one they know (or several) and each experience is different and special (or should be) So here is this woman who calls him sweetie, states that she trusts him with her life, and looks so heart broken when he doesn’t know her, how they bicker like husband and wife.
I suspected right off that she was a love in his future. Companion didn’t really work for me but someone important. And this scene just sealed that. The way her voice wavers, the look in her eyes and after the doctor comes in and says that he is the Doctor, she responds with - Yeah Some day.
And she looks down because she can’t look at him. He really isn’t HER Doctor yet and it hurts.
Now when i watch this scene all of that is amplified. It makes a beautiful heart breaking sense that crushes me at times because now I truly understand what she was feeling, how painful it was for her to experience all of it. Her worst nightmare, the one she knew was coming, had finally arrived. She couldn’t run from it, could only get through it.
I sometimes wonder what she thought she’d do when they got out of there. Run to her Doctor and get comfort? I’d imagine so. Only it’s all worse than that in the end.
Not really sure what all this is..